Just Stay Out

~~Saturday, May 23, 2009~~

2:29 AM

Am I the sort who gets angry very easily? or has some attitude problem? or what kind of person am I in the eyes of many? Is this a condition that requires attention? Or am I demanding? Sigh, I seriously don't know and I think I should give a little slack on this.

You know, strangely, these are the many questions I would always like to know personally. If I had all the money in the world, I would actually hire a shrink and meet up on a weekly basis so that I can have a person to rant to on and on and on... And even a person to analyse my sound or rather irrational arguements in life.

Confused. Paranoia. Put it simply, "I think too much".

Seriously, I should give myself a break and get out of this zone that I'm currently in now. Half a year seemed enough to get me out of all the uncertainties and a break from all these unnecessary and unwanted brooding of countless issues when the Canadian university accepted me for exchange. But now everything seemed so frail with the many problems arising from everywhere.

I seriously need a break. Like seriously.

living in my own sanctuary.

~~Friday, May 08, 2009~~

2:18 PM

After 3 yrs of tertiary education in poly, and exactly 1 yr in uni, i finally found out the area which im better at studying. Numbers, equations, formulas are not my area to excel in. Thus, i did specialise in marketing and entrepreneurship in poly. AND definately going to specialise marketing in uni.

After 5 papers, the 2 papers i enjoyed doing but not pinning my hopes too high was my marketing paper and one of the s'pore studies module changing landscapes. Yea, bascially all qualitative based and for marketing is squeezing your creative juice out to apply onto the exams questions, of course such creativity must be followed with a certain framework.

So out of the 5 papers,the remaining 3 papers this sem for me were infact all quantitative based, which i totally screw it all up. Im seriously crossing my fingers to pass all these 3. Econs paper was a horror, the last 50 marks.... i was clueless on how to answer it i tell you. A lot of students including myself had a great deal of problems attempting the last 50 marks qns. omg...
Apart from econs, management sci was another nightmare. After failing the mid-terms, i prac damn hard for the exams, the exams was DO-ABLE............. but i was confused with the inequalities symbol and wrote the inequalities sign the opposite direction that it supposed to be. So... i suppose all of those constraints done up were wrong... i just want to pass this damn module seriously..........

damn freaking scared now... judgement day is end of the month.

living in my own sanctuary.