Wednesday, November 09, 2005

living in my own sanctuary.

I dunnoe wad's his bloody problem can?

He didnt wan me to get into biomedical course, i listened to him and got into Business Studies.
He wanted me to get into Entrepreneurship. Told everyone that i am in Entrepreneurship specialisation, that was like the start of year 2 only. Without even asking me what i really wanted. Luckily NP offered dual specialisation in final year starting from our batch. So i took up marketing & entrepreneurship instead of PURELY entrepreneurship.
I had to put up with crappy management theories that i m least interested in.
Told everyone that i was undecisive with my decisions on choosing which course, so told me to get into Business Studies. yea... u with ur own cooked up stories.
Now he is telling the whole world that I am going to pursue my studies in the Local University when i m not even done with my 3 years in poly.
Say i'm spending his $$$. Like did i ever?! i only live over ya monthly allowance ok. All the bags, games, comics, psp, handphone is like i worked for it and paid it using my OWN $$$ lor. FYI: I believe that in gettin such entertainment, i shld use my OWN $$$ and not depend on u lor. The most i ask is a shelter, food and education. I dun look up to u like some ATM machine.
Living under this family culture of mine, i even need to say "pa eat" during meals, when he returns from home, i need to "good evening pa" , over the phone i also need to greet him. Before i sleep, i need to "good night pa". Morning, "good morning pa". When going out, "pa i go out 1st ar." ha... People are like "huh" when they hear i do such stuff... while i find it so normal coz i'm livin like this since the day i know how to talk. what more u want... i mean i m used to such culture at home. Is this a strict environment i wonder?

Lately he has been too much. showing his tantrums at home. Have been tolerating. I usually wont participate in his unreasonable conversations that he tries to engage with me. Yeah, conversations that want to point out mistakes and piss me off. Yea, today was simply too much. Was talking to my brother, i seldom talk to my bro coz he works till damn late. So today holiday, catch up rit. While talking, my dad kept interrupting me. I juz told him to wait using my hand gesture. I have my own set of rules that i live on, that is, when someone is talking, Don't Interrupt. And when i noe that i m interruptin someone else, i'll juz shutup and wait. BUT today, he juz blew his top saying that he called me so many times but i didnt bother. BTW that happened in Delifrance. LIKE COME ON LAR. Screamin at me at delifrance. So pissed that i even told him off lor to the extent that he thinks that i m the one who made things worst. pls.. hu started it... Or m i juz rebellious or petty???

Please lar, i noe your financial year ends at November. Venting your anger at home just isnt right okie. Yes, although my horoscope warned me abt this month's heated arguements will occur at home, i tolerated as much as i can already. I know that u do some stuff for my own good and care for me as a father. but.... the world isnt all about u.

I'm done keeping quiet.